And sometimes I can’t stand it
and tell some stupid things to you
instead of being quiet and just look at you,
with love of a thousand swans.
Oh God, I should be brave
as a hero as a man,
but I’m scared of failure again
and people call it a suicide
but every time I got shot from behind.
Shit, Is it too much to look
for honesty in this selfish world?
But why I am so freaking scared
You look more than nice and true.
It’s me I know and my pain
being hurt in previous
too many times.
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a Luta da Noite 
01/08/2017 at 05:27
There is no fear in love, but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love. ( 1 John 4:18, KJV )
Innate fragility, and an abrasive upbringing have combined to render me fearful and cowardly before life’s even modest challenges. But once, long ago, I met a man of rare nobility, who glowed with splendour from his deepest core. I was ablaze with adoration. And knowing that he was deeply wounded, and that his soul was in anguish, I rushed to his side, heedless of all strictures of convention and prudence, of threats of rejection or humiliation. My desire to serve him and bring him ease, was more powerful than the fear of death itself. And this “foolish” act, of casting myself recklessly at his feet, has turned out to be the loveliest and most selfless act of my cowardly life, ( in spite of the bitter-sweet consequences ) which I shall remember in the hour of my death. For that I owe him infinite gratitude.
May God grant you a similar meeting. May you also encounter one who will inspire you to a similar recklessness. If it’s not worth jumping off a cliff for, it’s not love, and neither mountains of poetic words nor oceans of sighs will make it so. Good luck!
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01/08/2017 at 10:05
My desire to serve him and bring him ease was more powerful than the fear of death itself. And this “foolish” act, of casting myself recklessly at his feet, has turned out to be the loveliest and most selfless act of my cowardly life,…
—> This is pure truth…
As you said, it’s it the greatest thing and deed to be done in life, to uprise falling soulmate. But the price for this is usually very high.
Thank you for the wish, as years are trembling my shoulders, need is getting bigger for someone to help me, this time…
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